I'm desperate, I just want her back.. How else can I put it? It was all my fault, call me stupid or a dumb ass, anything will do. I deserve it. Why can't I just have everything back to the way things were?

The perfect moments.

They stay stamped in my mind and I can't let go of them.

I'm killing myself over this, I'm at a loss. Loser. Failure. Words I'm familiar with... I'm destined for nothing, yet at one time I feel like I had everything. I let my guard down.