So weary.. and tired. I need sleeeeep.

I haven't taken off my contacts at all and my eyes are burning. My brain is burning also, too much food, too much TV and too much sleepless nights.

Reality is closer than it seems, the break feels too long and I need my brain cells working again haha.

I was going to post on Thanksgiving day, but this will do.

I never really celebrated Thanksgiving at all since I've gotten here. At first I just thought that it was a big party where we get lots of food, eating, talking and just partying. It's Thanksgiving, we give thanks for all that we have. We appreciate everything we do have. We realize the importance of who we have. Before we realize it, we're all alone without them. They give us strength when we need it, warmth when everything seems so cold... and every perfect moment.

Happy Thanksgiving.

My bed. Is. Awesome.

A size queen.

This bed is amazing, I haven't had so much freedom rolling around a bed in so long lol. Sleeping without having to curl up into a ball at night during those loooong coooold nights, just feels awesome. I haven't had any birthday presents in a while, but this year is special. I could rest.

Sweater, cologne and the bed

The best birthday one could ask

I'm blessed of this life.

I'm desperate, I just want her back.. How else can I put it? It was all my fault, call me stupid or a dumb ass, anything will do. I deserve it. Why can't I just have everything back to the way things were?

The perfect moments.

They stay stamped in my mind and I can't let go of them.

I'm killing myself over this, I'm at a loss. Loser. Failure. Words I'm familiar with... I'm destined for nothing, yet at one time I feel like I had everything. I let my guard down.