Snow

Snow is finally here. FINALLY. I've been waiting for this to come since September; a soft white blanket across everything. I hate the cold, but snow makes up for it...

My feet are like ice. My hands become a popsicle. I'm as cool as Iceman.

Father Time

Thank you.

You really can fix anything. I'm sorry for everything I've done, you haven't changed, you're still the same. I still want to be like you.

Father

Dad what happened to you? I always looked up to you, I wanted to be you. You knew what to do and you could fix anything. How did it become this way?

Time

Time passes by.. as I fail to write, eternal loving with all my might.

And indeed there will be time...

At this time of year, with all the Christmas lights and feeling of winter coming, I imagine what has happened in the past. I feel the same as I do now.. thinking about the next move I would make and the way I feel right now.

Of course this is what I presume:

“That is not it at all,
That is not what I meant, at all.”

What was I to know? Do I dare? And do I dare? Do I dare eat a peach? I dare say I did. I dared myself, I dare not become Prufrock. I'm tired of presuming,

So how should I presume?

Presume nothing and proceed. I have nothing to lose, only regret. I cannot allow myself to hold me back, I must conquer my fears.

It is impossible to say just what I mean!

A simple question. Why didn't I ask before?

Was it too simple that I did not understand? I cannot shy away from that moment, only three words will do:

I love you.

Fridays

Hellooooo Friday morning.

If you could call it morning? It's already 11:36. mm.. I'm hungry yet, food has adjusted to this time. It's already December 4th, wow.. how time flies by so quickly...

So I got an offer for a laptop for $300? Is that a good investment? I have no friggin clue. This is more like a random words of expression but i'll just keep talking anyway.

Good thing my dad bought a jumper on black friday or else we'd still be stuck in Montgomery County yesterday. Staying in the car with the radio turned on with the heater on car with low batteries? Bad idea. Fuck. I still got a lot to learn about vehicles...

Speaking of vehicles.. I'm taking my drivers license test again!!! haha. The last time around, it was utter failure. I forgot to signal, I didn't put two hands on the wheel.. WTF. I should have gotten that, I had the parallel parking down! Ugh. Guess I'll have to wait until next week. I'm too afraid to take in Norristown anyway, the testers there all look like grumpy old men and they seem like they want to choke me the minute I make a mistake. I'll take my chances in Frazer.. at least the guys are old.. but nice at the same time haha.

Well I'm off for breakfast, it's almost 11:43 anyway and I should be having lunch. Fridays are my summertime wrapped in cold, cold... weather.

So weary.. and tired. I need sleeeeep.

I haven't taken off my contacts at all and my eyes are burning. My brain is burning also, too much food, too much TV and too much sleepless nights.

Reality is closer than it seems, the break feels too long and I need my brain cells working again haha.

I was going to post on Thanksgiving day, but this will do.

I never really celebrated Thanksgiving at all since I've gotten here. At first I just thought that it was a big party where we get lots of food, eating, talking and just partying. It's Thanksgiving, we give thanks for all that we have. We appreciate everything we do have. We realize the importance of who we have. Before we realize it, we're all alone without them. They give us strength when we need it, warmth when everything seems so cold... and every perfect moment.

Happy Thanksgiving.

My bed. Is. Awesome.

A size queen.

This bed is amazing, I haven't had so much freedom rolling around a bed in so long lol. Sleeping without having to curl up into a ball at night during those loooong coooold nights, just feels awesome. I haven't had any birthday presents in a while, but this year is special. I could rest.

Sweater, cologne and the bed

The best birthday one could ask

I'm blessed of this life.

I'm desperate, I just want her back.. How else can I put it? It was all my fault, call me stupid or a dumb ass, anything will do. I deserve it. Why can't I just have everything back to the way things were?

The perfect moments.

They stay stamped in my mind and I can't let go of them.

I'm killing myself over this, I'm at a loss. Loser. Failure. Words I'm familiar with... I'm destined for nothing, yet at one time I feel like I had everything. I let my guard down.

The Debut

I have never owned a blogspot, nor blogged frequently but I thought this might be the start of something interesting. I can't sleep. I don't know how to explain it, maybe the stress of college has caught up to me? Hmm... maybe, but somehow I still feel like I'm lacking any challenge for myself. Today went smoothly, my rough draft receiving great remarks from my English teacher (although that class is nothing more than wasted 3 hours of my time). The class is interesting, yet it moves at such a snail's pace I feel like I'm in middle school all over again. blehhh... I can't think right now I'll just go to sleep.