Stop Crying

You're running out of tears. It's hard to accept what you don't want. I'm in the same situation as last year... Only it's different, I can't see her all the time.

I can't peek in a corner or walk by and pretend I didn't see her. Why do I love you so much? I don't know... I ask myself why and how I could keep doing this, taking more heartbreak just to have your love. I didn't need a reason why I love you, because giving a reason is not true love.. I believed that you loved someone no matter what. I don't know if you're still reading this blog or whoever might be reading this... but I experienced love that I didn't want to lose. I wanted one girl and girl only... to tell everyone that I loved no one else except her and that I've never felt this way about anybody. She wasn't just my first girlfriend. She changed me, gave me a new perspective in life and believed in me.. I want to also believe she loved me.. I always wanted to tell her that I loved her more and I still believe that I do.

Apologize

I miss you. I'm sorry, I can't help it. You're always on my mind and in my dreams. I would love to say that I miss you, all the time. I really do. It might seem weird that I miss you all the time... I always feel awkward when you don't miss me, even after we've already each other. hah. In truth, I'm crazy about you, I can't describe it. I lust after you with a passion, it scares me sometimes. I can't stop thinking about you...

Idiot

I am an idiot.

I let the greatest thing happen to me, slip through my fingers. Why oh WHY does this always happen...?

No goodnights.

No I love you's.

No more.. comfort. Tossing and turning in your sleep. You can't escape what goes through in your mind.

Talk To Me

Why does it always have to be like this? Everything we ever talk about, the promises me make, why can't we just make that happen? So many questions and answers.

I want this to work, you know I'm afraid of losing you. Do you really say what you mean or does that only count for the time being? Why do you make this so difficult... it's simple.